and here’s how prepared i am. for a maths to some extent ,for e maths to some extent, for the rest, not at all! im doing geog now… i’ll hope i do well there. help my ss up u see. then lit im ready for middy pants to some extent..for tkam not at all. im banking on one to pull up the other. then for sciences i don’t intend to use them so heck but i’ll study all the same. gosh im so nervous. tl is settled. el im still working, htl ahhhhhhh. ok i go nao. talk of this makes me scared. cya!

hey there. i have nothing intelligent to say and the computer is slowing down. its really irritating. im blogging now cos im waiting for my ilead project to load properly. i can’t believe im graduating in one week. i really can’t believe its been four years. it feels like i just walked into 1M and discovered sec sch. all the memories of my then innocent:)) peers and miss begam. the number of times we did our best to please her cos it was vital for life of course. we cleaned the classroom everyday…did homework conscientiously, sat in the corridors for assembly during wet weather obediently ,never complained, sang the school song. then in a blink of an eye i was in sec two, marvelling at how we pretty much could do anything! from the fantabulous cny to class deco etc etc. that was THE class spirit year. we were hyped up for eveything! i’ll still remember the day when it was the annual mtp and our class sat outside, in the corridor, in one long row. one would have thought we were attending a funeral. we broke as many rules as possible and came up with ridiculous rules for our own entertainment.’whoever eats in class does the napha five stations’ cos im sick of ants….along those lines. we made scandalous class tees without realising the implications behind the name printed…and managed to get miss nair forbid us from wearing it. it was also the yr i suddenly discovered i loved literature. i used it as an outlet all the time. i wore mistique to death. mdm nur was a sweet lady…she didn’t say anything. fifty laps came and went with us outdoing ourselves..the most interactive class in history. i’d bet nobody forgot us. we won’t forget our seniors giving out free hugs and so on..haha.i attended coals and faced my fears, for the first time i learnt what passion for cedar and friends meant. miss poon left her impact. deep and deep. i attend basic trainig  camp and learnt so much. about discipline and what suffering and laughing together as a team really meant. i will never forget coals 2007..that was also the year i performed widely in choir, and experimented in home ec and learnt the guitar and even performed it…i really miss my 2M..then came turbulent sec three,when i discovered nobody had time for anybody..when the teachers were harsh. when every fault seemed amplified. when i realised i had to work hard to pass things.. many things happened. my cca being the focus of my life. i didn;t understand pretty much anything with authority. i still wore mistique but this time, i seemed to be in the limelight. i forged new friendships ,i lost old ones. i missed relationships with people, i realised how fake some people could be. i hated eveything. my class for one, seemed to be in direct contrast with my 2M. they were silent, absoultely different from each other. i became a peer counsellor and we were still strangers together. things were slightly different after oac i must say. i cried. many a time. then on friday, the 30th of july, everything changed…i still cried till seven pm at school but i knew things had changed for good. mr chai our form teacher was really nice…we were supersomethings..

now my sec four year..it started off with fiesta as a main focus. by then i had learnt what was important to some people and what was to others. my class wan’t divided, we just didn;t share the same interests. but we got along real fine. we still do. we’re as different as ever but we can be united when the situation calls for it. i will not repeat myself, just know i will not tolerate anything said against 4S. we have all grown immeasurably, come a long way. from innocent sec ones to really different sec fours. mr kang is our form teacher. again this yr, although not as turbulent as last yr, its stressful all the same. i know almost every sec four student because i’ve done something or other with her. i must have jogged with her, or met her ta camp, or studied with her… im proud of everything i’ve achieved. i still miss my friends. those that were there, those that still are, those who will be. we jogged our last session on friday.. although my whole class didn;t attend..some of us did. we represent all of us. we know each other by now and we don’t insist on everybody doing things only the majority likes. its quite alright! our form teacher can;t run cos he’s got a knee injury but its the thought that counts. we did the billy banja and sang the school song..we cheered like we had never done before (literally)…and i know that will be the last time we run as cedarians again.i will miss mdm lum, mrs menon, and so many ppl when i leave. im so proud to be a cedarian. yeah we have our faults, yeah we have our geniuses, in the end we’re still ppl. but as someone said before…in the end..i will take away the relationships i formed here. the person i became BECAUSE i came to cedar. i will not alienate anyone. when i read my testimony and viewed my cca records i was so sad..but we will keep in touch because u all mean so much! i know i am a cedarian.

as of 10th october 2009, saturday, i will have to say I WAS.

there is fortynine days more to the big oh levels. the ultimate goal of my four yrs at sec sch. all the memories we’ve shared ,all the laughter that’d allowed us to forget this grim moment of reality is behind us now. we’re on our final lap. some of us would emerge victorious, triumphant and this would be a glorious, fitting end to all we’ve worked for. i wish my beloved four supersomethings, the very best. because u’re my untamable, unbeatable class. u’re all awesome ppl and i seriously doubt i’d forget any of you in yrs to come. october tenth marks the final day as official cedarians for us. we split ways ,dreams after the thirteenth of november. and i dunno. its saddening already. as for my teachers, who have honed me ,been with me on this long and winding path, who unknowingly prepared me for the past three years, i can’t thank you enough. you all aren’t just nobodies. u never will be. words can’t begin to express the feelings cedarians have for u. mdm lum said and i’ll never forget, ” come find me. i will be here, waiting, anytime. to help you”.. u’re the most selfless ppl i have ever met. sacrificing school days, holidays and weekends for our sake. when i found out i failed chem prelim two..mr kang said ” come back on wednesday from eight am to twelve pm”WHICH TEACHER WOULD SPEND SO MANY HOURS FOR A GRP LESS THAN TEN PPL. no srsly.. u all are the best. i hope u’d continue to have hope in us for the next seven weeks. here’s to a memorable finale.

till november thirteen,

sharanya.

SINGLE. SINGLE.SINGLE. GEDDIT?

u stupid boy. u quit now then i’ll be stranded with i-can’t-shut-it and gang! then how!!! =.= tks la tks. i’ll miss you! tc..

so yesterday was teachers’ day and at cedar it was fun of course. i gave out ice cream to a few teachers…i believe i left out mdm lum! ohnuu. but thats cos i didn’t have time. had to rush off to primary school. which was again, very nice. nostalgic.. the others went off to surprise miss meena and ended up getting a treat from her to swensons..lol. so she was shocked as we had planned. anw, my ice cream didn’t turn out so bad after all. i needn’t have worried abt not trying it first. I THINK CEDAR SHLD HAVE PRESENT GIVING TIME FOR TEACHERS! IF NOT HOW TO GIVE THEM MAN. NO TIME! before concert they are playing and after concert they’re supposed to have reception then leave manz..anw, im glad i got to meet my pri sch mates after soo long. hmmm. i’ll blog soon. must go do tuition hmwk..bai.

THAT WAS THE BEST EIGHTY MINUTES EVER. BLOODY BRILLAINT. WORDS FAIL ME. THANK YOU  MR SNG. SO POWERFUL, LITERARY AND MOVING. THEY MADE IT COME ALIVE. BETTER THAN ANY MOVIE. WHO KNEW DRAMA WAS SO PERFECT. THIS IS BETTER THAN THE MOCKINGBIRD PLAY WE ATTENDED. THANKS THOSE WHO CAME AND I REALLY FEEL AWFUL FOR THOSE WHO DIDN’T. THIS IS ONE, NEVER-TO-BE-MISSED-COS-ITS-EQUIVALENT-TO-DEATH DRAMA.

anyway, so today was a very long day. long enough for another post in a day:D heheh we camwhored and i returned super latee. it was honestly the best time ever..:D thank u ppl. i’d love to see pics.

tired manz. sorry i privatised for so long. hmmm quite a lot of things have happened over the past few days. prelims two ended yesterday. weirdly, while i was relieved, i only had one thought in my head. abt one and a half more months to o’s then. so we ended the paper at nine am. then had briefing etc till 10 plus. then i had practice till eleven plus. then rizzy and me helped mrs koh get work done. then i did acs paper till two thirty. went for teacher’s day rehearsal… left around three forty five. went to kovan, didn’t find what we were looking for. went to plaza sing. didn’t find what we were looking for. went to somerset and finally found it. phew. my legs were aching by the time i dashed back home at six thirty pm and shovelled food down before rushing out again for tuition at seven pm. ended at eight thirty and walked back by nine. then today went for sports day in the morning. from toa payoh. made a mad dash home, spent some time with mommy then left again for oral, which went pretty well for a topic on war thinggies, then am now back home. will be leaving soon for a drama. i bought a dvd for my family to watch together. maybe this weekend, after jayasudha’s prelims are over. but then again, vithya’s would be starting. whines. im spending this weekend making teacher’s day cards and stuff.

im so glad the ticket mess was sorted out..and if u guys want different seats, u can swap:) im not commenting much on sports day. i didn’t feel exuberant actually. then monday im off to freeze things, enjoy teacher’s day and then run off to surprise u noe who:) at this rate, i wont be able to do tuition  homework man. who has tuition at an ungodly hour of ten am on a saturday morning??

jayasudha is dancing for teacher’s day. i think she looks cute. speaking of cute, my neighbour’s kid had her first birthday. i think she’s really very cute! she already can dance to high five. hehe ok i go catch a couple of hours of sleep before i mysteriously die during the drama. i made my oral examiners laugh..unintentionally of course..=.=

PS: we need to sort out details before monday rizzy! its a hefty price for one…and abt the other issue, we can’t stalk someonez..so its either we ruin the surprise to save ourselves trouble for gate crashing or we do it outside the building. not inside. that way, we wont need permission. hmmm.

sorry sorry. i privatised this for some time. today’s papers werent too bad. but i know im relaly just trying to not jinx myself. i dunno.i just wanna express my graduation anxieties. i don wanna leave cedar!!! so many memories. and it feels like we were just starting on something big. a couple weeks more to the big o’s. my frens have either deleted their blogs or privatised it or simply write in a way that no one understands:) its all the o level fever. im super unprepared. hmmm

WONDER WHAT U’D FEEL LIKE IF U WERE HONEST FOR A DAY. LIAR LIAR. HONESTLY,(IRONY PRETTY MUCH), I DESPISE THE WAY U LIVE IN SECRECY AND LIES. NOBODY’S GONNA KILL U FOR HEAVENS SAKE. JUST DONT LIE. ITS DESPICABLE. OR AT LEAST DONT GET CAUGHT AT UR FAVOURITE HOBBY. EVEN THE BEST OF LIARS GET FOUND OUT. ARENT U OLD ENUF TO SAVE URSELF THE EMBARRASSMENT YET?

APPARENTLY NOT.

i dont like reading blogs nowadays. because i just dont like things. i know ppl are entitled to their own opinions. but doesn’t anyone think abt what they;re saying anymore?

so my younger seester tried her hand at dsa trials today. lol. lol. WHY was it so funny…:):) i gotscratched on my face by the ball and it bled a little. specs is kinda bent outta shape.but anw, i got laughed at man. and introductions were made. i hope she gets into cedar. and when she does, she’ll probably have that genetic jinx:) and then she’d be doing more than just waving cheerily at a person she barely knows. and everyone’d be so happy. man. she’d definitely have a group of friends she can depend on:) and probably a g.a. hehehe sorry this post is so insidey…heheheh i’ll make my next post more reader friendly kay? don’t cry!..bai..